yp92,
Did you take a look at this site by any chance?
Your letter is so messed up I don't know where to begin
with.
I'm trying to decide whether it's more messed up that
you are on a site where countless men are drooling over luscious
large labia and you are crying that your labia is not pink and
"normal" (???) or the fact that you see yourself so low that you need
to hook up with a cocky "player" to feel popular!? or that you say
you are very beautiful but your awful labia makes you so ugly?
There are plenty of tips for you here. Please take a look
and see if it brings you back to reality.