Nothing to be insecure over :)
Amenity
December 4, 2009
I wrote here awhile ago.
www.sexylabia.com/letters/msg2476_doomed.htm
Basically complaining about how my boyfriend at the time said I
looked gross down there. and for a young girl, this made me insecure,
I cried, and it almost ruined me. I thought I was ugly, and
thought no guy would want me because of that. I didn't do anything
seriously sexual with him because of my insecurity.
We ended
up breaking up, and I got ended up meeting a new guy, who is a year
younger than my ex, but is probably more of a man. :P
When I
started to get sexual with my new guy, I was afraid to let him see me
down there, thinking, he'd probably end up being like my ex, and be
disgusted. Same age group, and you know those young guys, influenced
by porn, and such like that.
One thing led to another and I
let him stick his hand down my pants, he said nothing, and fingered
me for a bit. Then he offered to go down on me, which I nervously let
him do. When he saw it, he didn't make a comment, he didn't pause or
anything, he just got on to it, and it was just so relieving, I
expected him to react to it like it was some sort of circus freak,
but he didn't do anything, he didn't stop and stare like it was some
sort of circus freak, he didn't comment, he just went down on me. And
just how he reacted, made me feel, I don't know, Normal. Which is
exactly what I am, i'm not a freak. I'm just a normal girl.
He didn't give a damn about it, so really, why should
I?
:)