Young Girl Struggling with Self Appearance

College Girl

June 12, 2007

When I was in fifth grade, I asked my Mother about my changing body. I told her "down there" was getting darker and larger. My Mom, being as you say blessed with large labia, didn't think anything of it and said it was normal.

When I started to date around High School, I had one of my ex-boyfriends tell me that my large inner lips surprised him and he didn't like them. After that insult for about a year I hid my body from any man and I constantly felt dirty and upset about the way I look.  I felt cursed. While I consider myself very attractive on the outside (most men rating me 7-8;blonde, blue eyes, 5'6, 124 lbs and natural DD breast.) I felt as if no one could ever know me because of my dark secret.  

For the past four years I've considered doing vaginal reconstruction surgery to reduce the size of my lips. My OBGYN has told me she doesn't think I need it and it will be more painful than any other surgery I will ever have.  

I now have a boyfriend I met the start of my Freshman year at college and I just let him look at me full on for the first time a month or so ago. He was excited to see and said nothing changed the way he felt about me. He reassured me that he wanted to know everything about me. He said he could care less if I had the surgery and it was ultimately my choice and he would be here for me.

I somewhat feel that the porn industry has brainwashed young men in showing them what is attractive. Bubblegum pink vulva that many people say resembles a  prepubescent middle school girl. It frustrates me that many men are ignorant to what real women look like and have such high expectations for the women they bed.

I personally have always thought that large lips inside panties were attractive. It's sexy seeing a slight bulge as if they're begging to be loved and to be let out of their confinements. I often also wonder which movie stars have large lips and if they would be brave enough to talk about this "small lip" trend.

After seeing your site I feel a bit more empowered about my body. I am starting to believe that any man who actually cares enough about the physically appearance of my lips isn't worth my time and could be possibly gay (my ex who made fun of me flirted with bi-sexuality). I thank you for having this site for women (especially young women of my generation) who struggle with their appearances on the inside and out.

I hope one day I'll be able to be comfortable enough, or be lucky enough to have someone service me the way they do on this site. My current boyfriend is inexperienced in that area and is shy when it comes to oral sex. Because of the way I look no one has ever wanted to nor have I ever wanted it.  

I hope this changes and I meet one of you guys who love large lips!


Sincerely,

--College Girl

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